This sunset. Made me think. Sunsets are the best places to think. They truly are. I sat here and watched the sun beautifully reflect on the ocean and turn the ocean pinker and pinker, contemplating my life and who I am. There are so many things I want to do, and modify in my life, yet they terrify me. I have come to the "conclusion" (in quotations because my conclusions are anything but conclusive) that fear is always going to stand in my way. It will always be there, taunting me and frustrating me. Sometimes it will hinder me from certain experiences and bring me down, way down. Sometimes this fear hits me so hard that I fear even more that there is no way up, and no room for breathing. It's like a tsunami takes the life and enthusiasm from you. And it frustrates you to your bones, leaving you chilled, bloodless, and overall stumped. The path seems to dead end, leaving you with no escape and no room to breath. Fear slowly creeps into your life, making your decisions for you, drowning out your screams for help. But it's time for me to fight back, because I am sick of it. Frustration and annoyance is overthrowing my fear today. Ultimately I have two paths, and I am taking the higher one. The higher one leading to where I belong and who I want to be. Fear may always be a part of me, but it will no longer control me.
ps, happy happy happy birthday to my best friend JP!!!
And on a side note, today on Kaua'i we found a GORGEOUS beach. Secret Beach. it's my favorite beach s far :) We hung out there most of the day until we headed to another beach, which I already forget the name of...uh? But it was a good day full of beautiful beaches, smoothies and shave ice!
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